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I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that it’s not to switch characters of preference if I don’t like one character and if it comprises my social life, but about stopping all characters, preferred and hated ones, because it’s not who I am here as a physical being.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to because I don’t like the introvert and self-conscious characters, switch characters in the moment I see and find myself being in the self-conscious character, where I go to the opposite, and become the socially competent character, where I act in bizarre ways and expressions that are based on the IDEA of how I must act socially to be accepted, liked and approved by others.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that neither of the characters are real because they are based and composed of ideas, thoughts, backchat, emotional-, feeling energy experience and are not physically real as self-expression because they are just based on ideas created throughout time as my past.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when I stop one character, immediately and automatically set forth the process of creating another character, mostly the opposite of the one I stopped, so I can feel a freedom to do what I want to do because I stopped the one character that I hated because it was compromising and robbing my freedom; instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that it’s not about stopping negative characters as characters I don’t prefer and replacing them with the creation of positive characters as characters I prefer, like and cherish, but about stopping all characters and becoming and living physically as the body, where the living is done in space and time as each singular and individual breath and the living is based on practicality and physical fact/is-ness and not on ideas, beliefs and opinions created within my mind throughout time as my past, influenced by the world in it’s entirety and thus can’t be trusted to be real because it was NOT ME who created those characters in AWARENESS and consideration of all consequences, effects, side effects, benefits and disadvantages it will have when and if I create it.
Thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when I see that I am participating in the self-conscious character, instead of simply stopping and realigning myself back to physical living as breath, step-out of the one character and step into another character which suits me more in the moment, which I prefer and like to experience more in a moment, such as stepping into a character where I have positive thoughts and backchat to cheer me up and uplift me in my energy experience and make me feel good, not seeing, realizing and understanding the self-bullshitting and illusion I am creating, accepting and allowing myself to participate and live in, and not seeing, realizing and understanding that I am just suppressing the negative thoughts and backchat in my mind that diminish, suppress and victimize me through making-up positive thoughts and backchat.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a database of characters in my mind categorized by like and dislike, where there are characters I dislike and hate and characters I like, prefer, want, cherish and fear to give-up. And thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto certain characters because I prefer and like them because they make my life easier, but not realizing that how I make my life easier through these characters is not based on physical fact and physical betterment but only on feeling better through creating thoughts and backchat that talk me up and created the feeling-, energy experience of/as happiness, superimposing the positive energy experience onto the negative one, suppressing the negative with positive in that, through which everything seems so great and beautiful, but only because I am seeing my OWN self-created bubble world in my mind and not the physical reality I live in.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create characters into which I step in my world to become socially more effective and competent, so that I can interact better socially with other human beings, where I act based on ideas I have created within my mind which I superimpose onto myself and my body, making myself see myself and my body through these ideas, where I see myself and act as more then I am here as a physical being and make my body more then what it is as organic matter, because I don’t accept, like, love, validate and approve of myself as I am here as a physical being and of my body as it is and exist as as the organic matter, form, structure and expression it exist as and consist of at the very moment, and am too ashamed of myself and my body as-is here because of various self-judgements based on IDEAS created in my mind about how I am apparently ‘supposed’ to express and how my body is apparently ‘supposed’ to be and look like; that I need to disguise myself into a character which I see as better, more and superior to myself and my body as-is here, to so raise my chance of being socially successful because apparently who I am here and who, what and how my body is here is not good enough for relationships, the world and others according to my backchat.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to listen and pay attention to and believe, define, judge myself through and accepted myself AS my backchats victimizing, diminishing, suppressing and bullying me by judging me and my body, telling me I am not good enough and my body isn’t good enough, instead of NOT believing the fucker and NOT following it because I see, realize and understand that it’s NOT ‘me’ because ‘I’ wouldn’t use my own thoughts and backchat to diminish, victimize, suppress and bully me and my body.
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