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This is the continuation/second part of Females are different !? My relationship with girls / females

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that females are here to serve men.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe and within that define and place females within my mind as being the servant of men, where the have to do everything the man demands of them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define females as less than males and within that self-acceptance and allowance treat females both internally as within my mind as thoughts, backchat’s, definitions etc. and externally as my physical living with and approaching of females — as less than/inferior to me as a male.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place myself as a male above the female, thinking and believing, perceiving and defining and acting as a self-proclaimed superiority and god over females.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate the male from the female, thinking and believing that we are different in and as Who we are as presence/substance/living beings/life/beingness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that males are more worth than females because they are the primary workers within this world system, doing all the strenuous physical work that most females cannot do due to their physical-strength ‘inferiority’ in comparison to males — instead of accepting and allowing myself to realize that without females I wouldn’t even be here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define, see and treat, accept and allow females to be less than myself as a male within my own mind and share this acceptance and allowance with the rest of the male species that we as males are more than females — instead of allowing myself to realize that it’s the female that has carried me for about 9 months in her own body, nurturing me within/throughout the development/evolution of myself as a physical body to be able to exist in this physical world through nurturing the development/evolution of all the physical systems that need to be in place for me to exist in this world, such as the development of my entire physical anatomy from my lungs that allow me to breathe to the heart that pumps the blood throughout my body, keeping all my bodily systems ‘alive’ — and that I should within that be grateful and thankful to the females with all my heart/beingness for caring for me within my development/evolution within and as a physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define and judge, accept and allow females to be less than me/males within my own mind/self — because of the physically measurable ‘difference’ in ‘physical strength’ between most males and females — instead of realizing that this ‘difference’ of ‘physical strength’ is only because of a differently ‘wired’ physical anatomy that regulates and dictates the quantity of specific hormone production like testosterone and estrogen etc. — and that this is NOT/in NO way whatsoever a ‘proof’ or ‘indication’ of male superiority and female inferiority.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define males as superior to females based on the endocrine system that produces more testosterone in males and thus ‘gives’ males potentially more acquirable/develop-able physical-strength.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I as male am the dominant figure within this world because I contain within me the substance of life as I define my semen and that I am therefor the god within this world because I apparently hold the power to create/give life — instead of realizing that my semen is fucking useless without a female that will accept the semen and ‘make from it’ the miracle of life.

I forgive myself that I have within that not accepted and allowed myself to realize that it’s only within the female body/anatomy that my/the male semen is useful because it’s the female that makes the semen useful — taking it further into the ACTUAL process of ‘giving life’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the odd thing, which is that even though I define, see, accept and allow and treat the female as inferior to me/males — I still cannot manage to survive/exist without her as I chase her to go into a relationship with to fill the emptiness I experience within myself and to experience sex with her.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I as a male am superior to the female because of having semen as the apparent substance of life — instead of allowing myself to realize that I as a male just get rid of it within fulfilling my sexual desires — and that it’s the female that does all the other actual strenuous job of ‘producing’/’giving‘/’developing’ life; housing another life/being/body within her OWN body that leeches nutrients from HER system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to as a male define, judge, accept and allow and share the acceptance and allowance of all males within this world that the female is less than/inferior to me/us — though still admire her ass and want to have sex with her — not realizing who’s the actual ‘inferiority’ here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a male to exert superiority over the female; through that try to persuade the female into the belief and acceptance that they need me as a male so they come and remain chasing after me as a male, because I fear that they lose interest in me/males because let’s face it — I require/need them and I want to be in a relationship with them and experience sex with them — but because of my ego/pride/fear to be seen as weak — fear to admit it and within that ‘reverse’ the case in a bizarre way of imposing superiority and making the female believe in their inferiority — making it seem as though females need me.

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