I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define and see myself as a dull/boring personality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of myself as a boring/dull personality/person with whom you can’t have any good times with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a boring and dull personality/person with whom you can’t have any good times with because I am always sad, depressive, desperate and serious.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that this is not about changing Who I am into another personality that I think will suit me in what I wanna accomplish in my world better — but about changing Who I am within self-honesty, in getting to know myself in and out, all and every single detail and refraction of Who I am — so I understand how I have created myself and in that never allow me again to submit to and allow systems that control me and live for me such as the mind, where the system respond to anything you put into it and which input thus has resulted in a creation of abuse and suffering of lives — without question and without taking a stand and in that completely re-create myself by my own hand, so to speak, where I am indeed a self-creation in absolute self-awareness of Who I am creating myself as.

So, within that: I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that it’s not about changing myself from being a sad and depressive being/nature/personality into something else of which I currently think will suit me better in whatever I wanna accomplish based on my mind desires, wants and needs, such as creating more relationships, getting more girls or whatever — but about finding out Why I am always sad and desperate, finding out how I have created myself as such a being and see/find out/look at How I can create myself into someone who’s Best for All Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to personalities, thinking and believing that I am a personality — instead of allowing myself to realize that if that is truly who I am then I am schizophrenic — because I have quite a number of personalities.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I am not a personality and that a personality is a made-up entity that I have created within and through my mind, in response to my environment, as Who I am with and/or Where I am — where the creation of the specific personality was done in accordance to/from within the starting-point of How I saw myself within and through the mind would be best to be in that environment or event/situation — based on fears, desires, ideas, thoughts etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to sadness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to depression.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always feel and be sad and desperate around others because I suppress myself and do not allow any room for self-expression because of fears and ideas that I am not worth it or that my self-expression is inappropriate — and so suppress myself around others due to fear and self-beliefs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that my self-expression is not important and also maybe quite inappropriate and or inferior/worthless in comparison to others — and within that suppress myself from unconditionally expressing myself within a moment — which builds up a sadness and depression within me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I am sad because I do not allow me to express myself unconditionally because of fears, beliefs and ideas about myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare my self-expression to that of others, and from the end-result of my judgment decide whether my self-expression is worth it and whether I am worth it to express myself or not and accordingly either express or suppress my self-expression/myself.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to simply unconditionally express and not compare my self-expression to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I have no right to express and voice myself whenever I feel or want to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that it’s others decisions whether I am allowed to express and voice myself or not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear self-expression through for example voicing/wording myself to others because I fear to be judged according to my self-expression.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear people judging my self-expression and within and because of that fear, think twice whether I will express myself or not whenever I feel or want to — and often end up suppressing myself and/as my self-expression due to allowing the fear to take over me and make the decision of ‘Who’ I am in that moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let my fears make the decision of ‘Who’ I am and ‘What’ I will do within a moment instead of being the self-directive-principle and decide for myself ‘Who’ I am and ‘What’ to do and thus allow me to express myself unconditionally whenever I feel and want to — and not think twice but just do it unconditionally. Unconditionally !!!

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my self-expression as inferior to others in some moments and superior to that of others in other moments — based on how I see the being within and through my own mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny myself the expression of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself with others in relation to who’s better or more or superior or ‘more special’ and through that assessment/judgment decide whether my self-expression is of any worth or not — and accordingly either allow myself to express me or deny myself the expression of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I need a reason to express myself and often end up suppressing my self expression because I can’t find a reason — instead of realizing that I am self-expression and everything I do is ‘expressing myself’ — it’s not just ‘speaking’ that is self-expression.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to unconditionally express myself whenever I feel and want to, without concern and worry about, and thinking about, and fearing what others might think of it, or whether or not, or how they’ll judge me.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to simply unconditionally express/voice myself whenever I feel and want to — without thinking.

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